This year has been exceptionally crazy and ambitious for me! I began 2012 by starting to write this blog. Not too sure what I was doing, my purpose was to document my self employment endeavors, encouraged by a friend. Looking back, the things I did this year amaze me. Five years ago, two years ago, or even just this past year, I could not have predicted the directions in which my career has been expanding. It’s an incredible feeling and I love the unexpected opportunities that constantly come up and having the ability to accept them.
Places I traveled to see art in 2012:
- Fort Worth: Caravaggio and his followers in Rome at The Kimbell, Jan; Lucian Freud at The Modern, September
- Houston: Moody Gallery, CAMH, Jan; Ai Weiwei Zodiac Heads at Hermann Park, MFAH, CAMH, May; Houston Fine Art Fair, Silence at The Menil, September; Houston Artcrawl, November
- Berlin: Gerhard Richter Panorama at Neue Nationalgalerie, Hamburger Bahnhof (Museum of Contemporary Art), Berlinische Galerie, Judische Museum, March
- Budapest: Marina Abramovich Eight Lessons On Emptiness, March
- New York: Cindy Sherman Retrospective at MOMA; Georg Baselitz, David Lynch, David LaChapelle, & Frank Yamrus in Chelsea; March
- Austin: West Austin Studio Tours, May; Hybrid Forms, Austin Museum of Art (AMOA), East Austin Studio Tours, November;
- Marfa: Chinati Open House, October
I had a hard time listing them without going through my blog! That is the most travel I think I have ever completed in one year, ever in my entire life. But I hope it’s just the beginning. All of these trips have introduced me to new artists, new spaces, what is going on in the regional, national, and international art world, and best of all, amazing art. Ranging from major shows that have been written about to discovering many new wonderful artists that are local, I have spent the majority of this year seeing and absorbing as much art as possible. It has brought me much insight and inspiration.
However, I didn’t always have to travel out of town to see amazing art.
- Andy Warhol, Fame and Misfortune at The McNay in April
- Agosto Cuellar at Artpace in May
- San Antonio Collects at SAMA in June
- Governing Bodies at Gallery Nord in October
- Franc-tober Fest at Bismark Gallery in October
Those are just a few of the highlights and a tiny portion of art that I viewed this year. I attended, as well, the majority of First Thursdays/Fridays, Second Fridays, and Second Saturdays. I would say 8-10 out of 12 monthly events of each. Then there are the additional shows at the numerous artist run spaces in San Antonio, I seem to meet new people/artists on a weekly basis. At least my pile of business cards, that I swear I will organize soon, keeps growing. The exhibitions I am hired to work at have not even been included. This year, that primarily consisted of the Southwest School of Art.
The end of the year brought a lot of mixed feelings for me. With my only regular part time job disappearing, I started to feel depression sinking in. Rejection is always difficult, and I am facing the fact that I don’t have another job lined up. The way I know I felt depressed was because when I would start to discuss all my ongoing projects (as I learned in my online class – never answer with just ‘I’ve been so busy’, be specific), it always ended with “and I don’t get paid for any of that.” I can’t say why I decided to be so revealing, I think some of the stress was starting to unnerve me. Apparently, I needed to vent and I’m glad that I did. The responses were amazing, such as being told that I’m doing a fantastic job, I’m doing things that nobody else is doing, and if I can financially afford to keep going, then do it. Overall, I received a positive response and people telling me they admire what I’m doing. I will always be the first to admit that I fall apart sometimes. The stress can be overwhelming, always believing in what you are doing and feeling confident you are heading in the right direction is not always easy. The trick is to learn how to deal with it, because it will not be ignored.
But I would not trade any of this for anything in the world. While those moods set in occasionally, I know I am the girl in the car dancing and singing as I drive to work most mornings. I have also had a few personal career triumphs this year as well. Seven Minutes in Heaven was quite an accomplishment for my first huge public event, I couldn’t have been happier. Getting my own studio space outside of my house for the first time is something I have been dreaming about for quite awhile now. Biding my time and being patient really paid off – a 1000 sf studio space is pretty fantastic! Shortly after getting my space, I went to the East Austin Studio Tours and the Houston Artcrawl. I couldn’t help notice that I had a larger space to work in than 80% of the studios I visited. Of course, you don’t need to have a huge space to create great art, but it sure is nice to have it! So, do I have anything to complain about? Absolutely not!! The more I think about getting depressed about not making money, I laugh. Who am I kidding? I have been working on installation art pieces that are NFS (not for sale). I really haven’t spent too much time or effort job searching or applying, I have too many projects that I have created on my own to work on. I work on my own terms, and for 70% of the work year, I answer only to myself. I get told regularly that I could do portraits when people see the graphite drawing I did of myself as a student. Yes, I could make some money doing that, but it doesn’t interest me. I am a very lucky girl to have the support of my husband for all of my crazy dreams.
I have also realized I have an interesting audience for my blog. Every single day I have readers from around the world. Of course, the US has the most views, but the list of other countries that have viewed my blog is pretty large, 73 different countries, in fact, since I have begun publishing. I started writing my blog in January, but officially publishing it just 6 months ago in June. My most viewed blog entry this year was about Cindy Sherman in New York, followed by Kreuzberg, Berlin, Chelsea, New York, and Agosto Cuellar, San Antonio.
- 1 Cindy Sherman at MOMA March 2012
- 2 Kreuzberg, Berlin: Street Art March 2012
- 3 Exploring Chelsea – Do Bigger Names Mean Better Art? March 2012
- 4 Artpace – Agosto Cuellar taking over May 2012
- 5 Seduction & Private Moments July 2012
Concluding my first year of trying to document, well, at least, something about what I do, has been quite interesting. Many things get easily forgotten when trying to write a self employed resume. Am I any closer to creating a good, representational resume? Probably not. But do I have a better grasp on what I am doing and getting better at setting my future goals? Absolutely! I still have no idea where I will end up, and that is half of the excitement. If life where all planned out for you, what would be the point of living it? I will enjoy where the ride leads me, trying to take in all I can. This year has lead me on some great adventures. I just try to take advantage of the opportunities presented to me that fit and so far, that has led me to a pretty happy life. The main lessons I have learned this year are planning ahead and just going for it. My instincts have led me to an interesting place that I know I have just begun to explore. I am so excited for the upcoming year!
Yesterday was the last day I could make it to the San Antonio Museum of Art (SAMA) to see San Antonio Collects: Contemporary, an exhibition of art from the private collections of San Antonio, including pieces from the late Linda Pace’s collection, before it closes this week. It is an impressive collection amassed here in San Antonio, giving me a rare glimpse into what is displayed in the expensive homes throughout the city. This impressive show includes internationally known artists, but also clearly recognizes the local talent from right here in San Antonio. This show focuses on the contemporary private collections, showcasing that San Antonians have excellent taste in art, and why many artists continue to work and be inspired in this bursting art scene.
Upon entering the room, an expanded accordion by Christian Marclay is the first sculpture to welcome you. To this point I have only seen Marclay’s film work, however, the accordion fits appropriately into his ongoing ideas about sound and music. His video, The Clock, 2010, was well received and reviewed, earning him a place in the 2011 Venice Biennale, leading Newsweek to name him one of the most important artists of today. Extending from the usual size, this expanded piece reminds me that sound can be made by anything and how any sound can be composed into music. A few months ago, I did get to view Telephones, 1995, at the Contemporary Art Museum of Houston. I was unaware Marclay had done a residency at Artpace in 1999, where this piece was created. Proof that Artpace and their guest curators recognizes outstanding talent.
Chakaia Booker is also included in the exhibit. I have been inspired by her work since she gave a lecture at Blue Star when I was an art student. She had completed so many pieces, she just walked around the audience, clicking the projector through her vast collection of images, choosing to show her immense her body of work, only stopping on a few key pieces to discuss specifically. Booker has a piece in the McNay permanent collection that I enjoy going to view. Her works are conversations about the environment, re purposing rubber tires as her primary material. At the lecture, she was asked where she got all of the tires, as she has created some massive public sculptures. Booker laughed, responding that tires where everywhere and free. Since her lecture, I have included rubber to my stock pile of art supplies. She was absolutely correct. They are plentiful and cost nothing but the time it takes to stop your car and throw them in the trunk.
A large portrait of Linda Pace by Chuck Ramirez was displayed. Not the traditional portraiture you would expect, Ramirez did a series of intimate Purse Portraits, revealing the secrets a woman hides and carries around with her in her purse. Louis (Linda), 2005, exposed the contents of Pace’s purse, in a large 60″ x 48″ format. Often very personal, this series exposes a private, yet functional side of his subjects, needing and using the objects carried around, yet the inside of a purse is personal, secretive. Ramirez takes this commercial approach to portraiture, isolating the subject, making it the only thing for the viewer to contemplate without distraction.
Other pieces I enjoyed in this exhibition included two pieces from Robert Longo, an artist that I have always found inspiring. The large, contorted bodies of his subjects are both awkward and entrancing to look at, again, a different way to view portraiture. His subjects are dressed for business while their poses reveal another reality, almost as if they were just struck. In my silhouette paintings, I have been using very feminine imagery, however, I have been interested in a more unusual body image, influenced by Longo, expanding from the more common femme fatale. There are a few people that have expressed interest in modeling for me using a trampoline to get a falling sensation from different body poses. Now if I could just find a trampoline to use…
Another notable San Antonio artist included is Alex Rubio. His huge piece, 4 Horsemen, takes imagery from the Book of Revelations, discussing apocalyptic themes, while updating into his signature style. Representing Pestilence, Famine, War, and Death with skeletal figures, he expands the imagery to include healing remedies for each of these world issues. Also included is a bird representing each of the subjects he tackles on the canvas, a living symbol of the horrors that will one day be the end of civilization. Of course, these are just a few of the fantastic pieces included in this exhibition. There is no possible way to discuss all of the wonderful art work on display, so I had to just highlight a few that stood out for me. Artists were represented from coast to coast, including Jeff Koons turning childhood memories into iconic sculptures, and a sleek, polished industrial board from John McCracken. This has been one of my favorite shows curated by David Rubins at SAMA. I am so glad I was able to make it, before this exhibition closes later this week.
The other night was a membership party at Artpace. I am a member of Artpace because I love all of the contemporary ideas they support. I love their residency program and how it brings art from around the world to San Antonio. I have also seen some great opportunities taken with their annual travel grant. Artpace is a place I always expect to see fresh ideas being experimented with. As per usual, there was great music and plenty of drinks flowing on the rooftop. But the star of the evening was Agosto Cuellar, Designer Extrordinaire. He has successfully run several businesses and has been designing for years. Tonight, Agosto created a fun photo shoot for willing participants. There was no way I could resist! Here is my finished photo taken by Erik Gustafson:
But it took a team of people to create these portraits. It began with Agosto designing you. He had several interchangeable pieces that he had created. Each person got a different look, making this a unique experience. He creates original styles that are fantastic.
Next was off to hair by Angie Riojas. Adding several layers of hair was another part to put together Agosto’s vision. It took many different smaller pieces to shape an entire head of hair. As you can see, it was quite a high wig on me by the time it was complete. It was so much fun!
It was supposed to then be make-up, but since I was next to last, there was no make up left. The last bit used on the person before me. So of course Agosto got creative and took over, deciding to use tulle on our faces instead of makeup. I think I preferred this much more, giving an aire of mystery. Besides, I prefer to be different from the crowd anyway. This was such a memorable evening! The best part was discussing Seven Minutes in Heaven 2013. Yes, there has been talk of the sequel event, since before the first one had even occurred. I love that there has been such a positive response to the show. At the Artpace party, I confirmed my first artist for the next show, Vanessa Centeno. She is a fantastic artist from San Antonio currently going to grad school at the University of New Orleans. It was luck that I ran into her, she was in town for less than a week. The next day I ran into Agosto in Southtown and got to tell him what a fantastic time he had created. One thing led to another…and I have now confirmed artist number two for Seven Minutes in Heaven 2013. I am very excited to have Agosto included in the show. He always brings his originality and electricity to all of his events. I am a big proponent of having a show with many different mediums. To have a fashion element will keep this event fresh and unique. All new artists, all new location. This should be just as exciting as the first one!